I'm here tonight nursing a sore shoulder because we started the first leg of our three-day quest to move from our house. All our stuff is going into storage and we have made arrangements to stay with friends while we wait for our new home to close escrow. I imagine that it's going to take about 3 more weeks(God willing) for everything to get sorted. It'll be good to be out of here just so we can feel like we are a bit closer to our goal and not have the nasty cloud of eviction hanging over us.
I heard from Space today. It was a major relief to get some word from him though I still don't know what happened. It rankles my hide a bit to know he is in despair from that damned place. Perhaps it's because I went through the same mess from the same people a year ago. Or perhaps I just don't like when evil people harm the good.
"It is the responsibility of the good man to bloody the nose of the evil man now and again" -- Me
Not a very Christian statement I know, but it reflects the anger I feel at seeing such injustice. Maybe I'm just a Paladin at heart. :-)
I've come to realize that it is easier for me to love my wife than it is for her to love me. She said something today that really hurt me in my heart and yet I still eventually forgave her and went about our day. I think she has a REAL hard time empathizing with anybody, including me. That is perhaps the reason we have such a sordid past, and why I could never do to her what she has done to me. All I can think about is how much I would hurt her and having to face her knowing I put her in such pain. In many ways I guess I pity someone who cannot empathize with others. It must be quite a lonely world for such people.
In other news, I'm narrowing my search for a paintball gun. I'm really favoring accuracy over speed-of-fire. To that end I want to get an Autococker brand gun. However, all my friends are pressuring me into getting guns exactly like theirs. I think I'll just go with my instincts.
Lastly, I am still enjoying school quite a bit. But, I am frustrated with my psychology class. My teacher is great and I am soaking up the content. However, it is going slow because our class is filled with this group of local goons that just love to interrupt the teacher with their anecdotal stories of how exciting their redneck lifes are. One guy in particular likes to sit smugly by his wife/girlfriend and make all manner of stupid and disruptive comments to be the class clown and soak up attention from the teacher/class. It's like he was a mommas boy who was used to being praised and adored by a doting mother and now wants that attention from the rest of the world. I know it's not good to judge but it is really getting annoying and it is starting to detract from my enjoyment of the class. I just don't know what to do because I am starting to dread the class for that simple reason. Maybe I should talk to the teacher about it and see what she says. Or perhaps I'll just keep my mouth shut and be passive-aggressive. Time will only tell...
Happy Autumnal Equinox everybody!!!!!!
