I soar with Eagles

Funny thing about not being depressed or in despair is that I have less inclination to write down my feelings in my blog.

Yeah, you heard me right.  I am not depressed.  Sure, the melancholy bug bites me once in a while.  But, I no longer have the months upon months of crushing self-hatred, despair, etc etc.

So, how did I beat it?  Did I grow out of it?  I still have problems, health wise I hurt a lot in my back and shoulder...  just like before.  We still struggle to pay our bills and keep food on the table.  So, what is my secret?

I gave up...

I gave up pursuing a God that did not find me acceptable.  I gave up feeling like I was sinful and unworthy.  I gave up hating myself whenever I did something that Christianity regards as wrong.

The day I looked up at Mother Moon and realized that she has always been there for me.  The day that I touched the earth and realized that Mother Earth did not judge or despise me, that she loved me and that I belonged in this day and this time.  This was the moment that it all went away.  This was the moment that I was set free to soar with the eagles.

Can you do it too?  I don't know.  It was an epiphany for me.  These revelations came to me and I believed them.  I did not doubt, I did not fret over the chains of an old life that was meaningless.  I accepted them as truth, and I came to regret all the wasted time I spent in the Temple of the Sacrificed God.

Now, I do good deeds because I want to, not because I believe a judgmental God was watching.  Now I stand up for the weak and the poor because it is the right thing to do, not because I am commanded by a God that won't do the very thing he tells me to do.

I realize that a true and good God would not want you to worship him/her, but would want you to live a good and happy life and be thankful for their gift of life.

Yes, I have lost friends and family because of this new way of thinking.  Yes, I have been judged by those who do not understand.  But, in my heart I am overjoyed and I could never imagine going back.

I soar with eagles.