From agony to joy

God in heaven be praised. The long awaited blessing is ours. The owner of the home signed the papers on our deal and it goes into escrow next week. I am ecstatic with relief that we have crossed this hurdle. In all of my 33 years I have yearned for a place to call my own. Now it is close to a reality.

Besides giving credit to God above I have to say that alot of work was done on our behalf by the only honest real estate broker and agent in this country. They really worked hard for us and I think if it was anyone else we would still be pulling our hair out with the search. Thanks be to God for helping us find them.

Now the effort must be made to move out of this wretched place and find short term lodging while we wait for escrow to close. That will be hard but I am sure that will find something.

Some dreams do come true I guess...

From cooking to agony!

My faith and patience is being put to the ultimate of tests. The agent called back today and said the seller is waiting a couple of days to give me an answer because he wants to see the condition of the house for himself. Apparently, he hasn't seen the place in a couple of years. Anyway, it just means more waiting and crossing into our deadline for moving out of here. My fear is that the family may have to be uprooted in the course of a couple of days and we may have to stay in a motel. That will eat up so much of our money and cause such a hardship.

I have tried everything short of begging to have the landlady let us stay here for a couple more weeks. She is absolutly resolute and won't listen to reason. She is an extremely hard hearted person and I am sure she is going to start eviction proceedings tommorrow. But, what can I do. If we leave and stay in a motel it will chew up all our money and destroy our ability to buy a house.

This is so hard and my faith is shaking. I'm filled with so much rage and frustration. I just want to run and never look back. My thoughts have been dark as of late and it is really hard. I need inspiration and hope but it seems fleeting. Never have I been so close to my lifelong dream of owning a home. Yet it is so far.

I don't want to tell my wife because she has been so happy. She has had such a hard life with me yet she stays and clings to hope. Perhaps there is no hope with me. Am I destined to die a heartbroken pauper?

The pain and torment is too much for me to bear...

Oh yeah baby now we're cooking!!!

Okay so we kinda gave up on our other real estate agent. He was too busy golfing.

So then over the weekend I stumbled upon an ad for a house here in town that was being listed by an office in a nearby town. I called the broker and he got back to me and asked if I'd wait to see the place on Monday. So, today we saw the place and fell in love!!!! It is an older home in need of some work, but it is beautiful and very cozy. It's got a great heating system and even a root cellar. It's awesome.

So we managed to put in the first offer on the house and the agent actually called us back(big surprise there) and said the owner was receptive to it. Tommorow we find out if he takes the bait. Then by the grace of God alone we will get the financing and move in.

So, we are back on pins and needles...

Still waiting

Well, I finally heard from the agent and the news is mixed. He said the owner made a counteroffer to the buyer and the buyer may come back today with a yeah or nay. If it's rejected then we'll put the offer up and see what happens. Meanwhile, I have been reviewing other options in this market. It is hard because everything is so overpriced. But, thanks to desperate buyers like myself people are getting what they ask for.

The microbrew thing was a total loss yesterday. I got up to the ski park and the organizer said they had enough people and I would have to either pay admission or sit outside. So, I asked the wife to come get me and I started walking down the road. I must say that my hike in the deep woods on the side of an ancient volcano was very spiritual for me. I recalled back to a time as a kid sitting in the deep woods listening to the wind in the trees. It's almost like the voice of creation whispering to me. The experience brought me to tears and I realized how much I miss my hikes. I came here to live because it is my home and the forest offers me a peaceful refuge from the pains of life. I need to seek this thing again.

I guess the trip up there wasn't a total loss afterall.