I got pretty mad last night. I went to the house of a customer to play a game with a few other Games Workshop employees. We all had a few beers and things got a little unsportsmanlike. I admit that I was a bit obstinate myself. However, what pissed me off is that one of my employees was there at the game and I felt like he was being a disrespectful to me. In fact, I really felt like he was purposefully trying to get me angry and embarass me. At one point, he was dogging me about rules implying that I was cheating. Perhaps it was the alcohol making me paranoid and making him an asshole. But, I left the game feeling betrayed by him and swearing not to return to their Thursday night games. In hindsight, it's probably best that I don't go back just because I don't want to be accused of inappropriate behavior.

To top things off I had a dream last night that I was in a large group of people including my wife and a few of my best friends from the past. We were playing a roleplaying game and having a great time. In fact, everything was perfect about the game. No bickering or dealing with hard feelings or grudges. Just playing a game and enjoying each others company just like in the old days. I woke up and spent the day today reflecting on my life. Sometimes I wonder if those days can ever be again. Or have I passed the best times in my life.

Finally, the last vestiges of my radio career are gone. Today I sold my $450 car stereo system my old radio station gave me as a bonus. I needed money for gas. I got a grand total of $30 bucks.

I'm wondering when it will stop raining here. We've had a couple nice days so far but not enough. I'm kinda getting bummed out by the weather. I've been wanting to put the soft top up on my Jeep but, everytime I think it's time to do it it starts raining again. YUCK!!

I'm nearing the end of my probationary period for my job. I hope my bosses think I'm doing good. Frankly, they just don't tell me if I am or not. Sales are still low and they haven't increased apreciatively since I arrived. However, we are busy with in-store events. It just seems like the people who attend don't buy much at all. However, everyone tells me that things have improved in many other areas. I'm a little frustrated at this point though. My boss wants me to do things to increase sales and I am not sure how. I follow everything I know and have been taught how to do. But, it doesn't seem like enough. I see the staff, and I remember how poorly they performed when I arrived, and how well they are doing now. I see progress. But, I'm afraid it is not quick enough. I pray to God that things go well for us.

I still dream about settling down in our own home. This apartment living and renting is the pits. I want very much to have my own yard and my own space in general. I had a dream the other night that we bought a house in Florida. We lived on the edge of a bayou with a small cottage behind our home, and in it lived my mother-in-law. I was sitting on a shaded patio with my wife. We were both sipping iced tea and watching my mother-in-law plant flowers with the kids. I remember it being hot and humid but we were all having a good time and laughing. Even with my mother-in-law there I hope that dream comes true.